Are They Really A Friend?

So have you ever known this person, been friends with this person - or at least you thougth you were friends with this person and really never understood WHY??? I mean this person irritates you, is rude to you, and just over all thinks they are better then you and knows more then you. But you like this person, you enjoy their company, for the most part. They do have thier redeeming qualities. Although sometimes it is hard to see them when they talk to you like they are talking to their child.

Now normally I can just lash right back at them... tell them they are a *&$%ing idiot and to grow up... but recently it hit me... why should I? Why should I even put up with this shit? I mean, are you REALLY worth it to me... probably not. Life might be a little more dull, a little more lonely without this ONE person around, but really that would be okay.

Does this person really think that belittling everyone around them or talking like they are a know it all to everyone is really what everyone wants to hear. Maybe I should try a different approach. Maybe it is not me at all - but them. Maybe there are issues on their part that I don't know and that it just the way they deal with feeling inferior to others. I know I am not alone in this thought. I know there are others that wonder why we put up with this from this person... So really that makes me think that it is NOT me. But heck, it very well could be.

For now, I will probably just bite my tongue (as much as is possible for me) and let this person go on believing. Let this person go on being the Know it all the wish they were, but boy that day will come when it will crumble all around them - and won't it be nice to sit back a chuckle. And then being the friend that I am step in a console, comfort and laugh with this person... becuase at some point the realization will hit them that people don't like the former them.

For now it is time for me to go ... back for more later!!

The Challenge!!

Well it seems I have been issued a challenge... Am I up for it? Not really sure... I want to be.... I want to conquer this challenge with guns a blazin' and say "Ha!!, I told you I could do it"... The reward is amazing. But it's not just the reward, it is what I will get from the accomplishment of this challenge as well.... that is probably the bigger reward in all this.



But what if I fail? What if I can't do it? What if the accomplishment of this challenge is just to far out there.... Is it okay to fail as long as I get back up and keep trying? Isnt' that normally what they say is the most important part... to keep trying?



I want to try and I want to win... but I'm not sure if the goal that is set is unrealistic... I think it is - but dream that it isn't.... which will win... which will be right?



So for now I have accepted the challenge - I think I worry more about letting the challenger down then actually accomplishing the goal... that would really be the worse in this all... but if I just keep trying, then I guess that is all that matters, right? Right?

Well, I guess I won't know about the failure until I accept the challenge and give it a shot... so I am off to do that... accept it, and convince myself that I can accomplish it - cause I guess if I really wanted to - I would....right? Right?

For now it is time for me to go.... back for more later

Getting Things Started

Well, this is it... I am joining the "blogging" community.... I never thought I would... I mean really who wants to hear what I have to say... I would pretty much say - no one... but I guess it is therapy to get it all out. Put it all down. And read it later.

So here I am wanting to come up with something witty and intelligent and I have nothing - not one thought that I feel like would be worth sharing. Maybe I should share what I think you won't want to know... that would probably be more interesting anyway, right?

I guess an introduction is in order first.... I am a married mom to a great 5 year old little boy. My husband and I will be married 10 years this September.. my how time flies... never thought I would make it this long. But really - I can't look back now and NOT see myself here.

Not that my life is what I thought it would be - but it is a pretty good one. I have great friends, neighbors, family, and a home that I love... although something bigger would be nice... but hey, all in time, right?

I did always beleive that life would be more glamorous then it is... not that I was expeciting red carpets and after parties, I guess I just figured dinners with the boss and theater tickets... but I am kind of glad that we don't have that... we are more grab a quick bite and hit the football game....Footbal... now there is something I can get into and talk about... but I'll save that...I mean I have to have somethign to say later... right?

For now, it is time for me to go.... Back for more later.....